yeah i just dont know how to start this out because im hell not good at expressing myself. specially with somebody i love the most. do you still remember how we met? that day when i received your comment that says "Hey dear. Nice page c:" that day when i learned about my parents' divorce. that day when everything was like falling apart. that day when i was almost killing myself? that day when i only have one way to get away from pain.
and then i met you. we started talking more, and started getting to know each other, and became really close, realized that we have a lot of things in common.
i just want you to remember that you came in the most bitchest part of my life and changed it. you've always been there for me. spamming my page, saying how much you miss and love me, sharing everything. always willing to read my most annoying messages, always ready to give advices, always there to make me feel so loved.
but then i was not able to give back the love that you have given me. because since i have moved to the united states, all that i think about is to move forward from my stupd parents. you know i accomplished that. i have moved forward. but maybe it was just too late when i realized that its not what i really wanted. it's too late when i realized that yeah we never totally saw each other even once but, youre the one that builds me up. not myself. not this "hapiness".
and maybe now you realized that i wasnt worth the love. im so happy because you found your new-love-worthy friends. im sad because i missed everything. and how it used to be. please always know that i love you most. and if dont wanna talk to me anymore, its okay. its fine. just please keep in mind that im always here.
its been almost two months since the accident. im going pretty well now. but i still walk with braces and homeschooled. yeah i know its weird. i love you elly. YOU'RE MY BESTESTFRIEND EVER. ♥