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i sometimes log in like once every 2 or 3 years & am so surprised to see that anyone is still here.
this place was such a huge part of my childhood; one of the first sites i found when i got internet in 2008 when i was like 12 or 13.

for those who were unaware, i was behind many fake accounts, pretending to be boys or pretending to be pretty girls who all somehow knew the real me.
i grew up in a home where i was rejected by my family, and school life was basically the same, as the rejection by my family made me an awkward mess on top of also being a giant she-beast. i was very harshly rejected by most of my peers & was diagnosed with AVPD when i was 16 or 17. part of AVPD is creating a fantasy/make believe world to escape from reality to, so as messed up as it seems i was creating these fake accounts to feel wanted, cared for, and accepted by my peers.
i apologize to any people i hurt and misled over the years. i think the first 'big' fake that i did on here was as a boy named trevor. this was probably for 2 years around 2008-10. he was actually a boy named justin that i went to school with. i cannot even begin to name off the rest, the web became so intricate & extensive that i literally was just 'killing off' these fake people to not have to deal with it anymore.

it is really messed up but it's really telling to how mentally unwell i was at the time.
i don't really come on here often enough to answer questions in a timely matter, but if you were ever wanting to ask me if i was a fake you knew or to get closure on any hurt i put you through, please drop a comment and i will do my best to allow you that healing.

please try to keep in mind i am in no way the person i was when i last frequented on here ( i think that was like 2012, so i was 18??? i'm like 27 now lol) i'm married with kids now & living a happy life despite the setbacks. i hope you all have been doing the best you can, the world is crazy these days & if i can do anything to help lift some weight off your shoulders just let me know.

7/19/2021
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masaya. writes:
also idid read ur message. i forgave u a long time ago. the real issue is forgiving yourself.
you defininetely had an impression on mybrain and life as i was 13 at the time. 22 now!


Posted on: Nov 3rd 2021, 9:49:01am

masaya. writes:
and i know u always think of me because i always think about you


Posted on: Nov 3rd 2021, 9:48:10am

masaya. writes:
miss lady where did ur fb go i cant see it. i always look on it ot see if ur okay


Posted on: Nov 3rd 2021, 9:47:55am

shaymin writes:
omg! hello! it's been so long


Posted on: Aug 29th 2021, 12:48:04am

crywaii writes:
keeping my icon the same so people can still remember who i am. i think i went by corynn or shady on this account! shady is my real name but corynn is one of my middle names so both are acceptable!


Posted on: Jul 20th 2021, 11:33:03pm

masaya. writes:
in my thoughts


Posted on: Nov 29th 2020, 7:59:26pm

masaya. writes:
HMPh


Posted on: May 17th 2018, 3:56:10am

bxbyelf writes:
thank you love <3 she was finally born 5 days after you were on here. there's a link to her pic on my page if I don't get to you on tumblr first. it's been ages since we've spoken last. it'll be nice to catch up :-)


Posted on: Feb 2nd 2018, 2:32:40am

masaya. writes:
I always check your fb
Always always watchin<3


Posted on: Jan 19th 2017, 3:17:30am

masaya. writes:
Wahhh


Posted on: Sep 28th 2016, 4:35:00pm

shyber writes:
Hey!


Posted on: Jan 12th 2015, 5:06:02pm

mew writes:
do you play animal crossing?


Posted on: Aug 31st 2014, 7:20:40pm

mew writes:
aw, you're such a sweetheart? you're gonna be a mommy? well, congratulations. you're going to be a great mother. you're a very caring person. the baby is going to be lucky to have a mother like you. c':

i'm glad you're happy. you deserve to be. miss you, sweetheart. <3


Posted on: Aug 30th 2014, 9:08:43pm

naturefeels writes:
thank you love. oh my, it's been so long. i hope things are going well for you, judging by your profile they are :) congratulations dear, on being a mommy to be. when are you guys getting married? i'm glad you stopped caring about negative things in life, i am trying to do so aswell, i'm still learning but i've grown a lot since we last spoke. come back soon and update me more in detail <3 :)


Posted on: Aug 30th 2014, 7:38:51am

bxbyelf writes:
I miss you! I was wondering where you've taken off too.
You're gonna be a wife & a mommy?! You're due the day after my birthday. c:
Congrats!

Check in soon!


Posted on: Aug 30th 2014, 6:00:16am

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