Of course I'm gonna miss you. I'm gonna miss your hugs, your kisses, your text messages. But most of all I'm gonna miss you.
I should of seen it coming. I knew it was gonna happen. But I thought you loved me too, I thought you would never do this. At first it was nothing, I wouldn't mind then. But that was before it happened. I fell in love. They say your to young to love. But I don't believe in that. I thought I felt love before, but this is so much more. We never even talked much. Maybe just a hi. But even then somehow I managed to find a way fall into the deepest love I have ever felt before. I can't believe your gone. It hasn't even been that long. A month and a half and your already bored? You felt like it. What a lame excuse. You break my heart when I fell in love with you and that's all you have to say? Maybe if you replied my texts I'd be able to tell you just how much you meant to me. I tried and tried but you never replied. I wish you knew how much I loved you. I've never felt this way before. I don't think I will ever be able to see you with anouther girl. But I'm gonna have to get over that. Because tomorrow you will probably be dating my bff. You say we can still be friends, but that can never happen. Friends can't love eachother the way I love you. I thought I had fell in love last year. I told all my friends, he was the one. But that was before I met you. I can't believe I thought that was love. It wasn't even half as much like this. Ever since the day I first saw you, I didn't even know your name, or if I'll ever see you again. You sat down next to me in the computer lab and said I typed mad fast. If you ask me I'll say yes. Yes I do believe in love at first sight. And that moment proved it was real. Several months later I found out who you were and asked you out. We never even really talked much, even when we were going out. But I was a terrible girlfriend. I never really showed you how much I loved you and when I was gonna you never replied. I never should of told you those things and put you under that kinda pressure. I never should of talked to that other guy. But now it'a to late. I've learned something today. If you have something you love, hold on to it as if it as its last moment. Becuase you never know, it could be gone the next day. And I relize that now. Now that you're gone, I don't care what happends to me. I feel like life isn't worth living anymore..well that's how I felt when I first heard you were breaking up with me. Thank goodness there were two more periods left in school otherwise if I was home...who knows what would of happened. I feel like bungee jumping. All the thrill of suicide without the death. Perfect. I know your gone know and I know something else.

I'll never be the same. </3

I have been thinking about what its gonna be like, going out with someone else, and I don't think I can. I have thought about it and I don't think I could ever love someone like I loved you. We didn't even talk much. I think I liked that. I don't really like having a boyfriend thats everywhere. But I loved you and nothing could ever change that. And now I'm gonna have to deal watching you love one of my best friends. Kill me why don't you. I guess I shouldn't really say that cause I told her it was ok. But what was I supposed to say? I feel like now I can take more life-threating risks, like nothing matters anymore.

I've been changed, forever...

May 14th, worst day...EVER!!